8.25.2011

After 3 Months Off

Thursday, 25 Aug 11, 1.52pm at home
Dear my diary,
It's been 3 months since I last wrote my diary. Time really flies so fast! My baby is already 6 months old now. We already moved to our own home, finally! By the way, we're still in Hong Kong. Life after having baby and taking care of home renovation have really made me busy. Without realizing it, I'm already 30 years old now. At this age, I'm contented with what I have. I have a wonderful little family, and finally I have a home sweet home! Moving from place to place, from country to country, is really tiring. I've settled down now, in Hong Kong; a country that I never have expected that I would be living in till I have my grey hair. The feeling of settling down is so great! I can make my luggage empty, I can buy the things that I like without worrying that I will need to throw it away when we move later. Anyway, I'll post the pictures of my home after everything's fixed.

I just realized that I have not uploaded any picture of my baby Wesley in my diary. Here is the picture of my Wesley. :))

-Abbie-

5.27.2011

First Time Leaving Wesley

Friday, 27 May 11 6.39am on the bus

Dear my diary,
I'm on the bus on the way to airport now. I'm flying to Australia, to Sydney. My hubby is already in Sydney since 2 days ago for business purpose. I got flu and coughs these last few days, I'm so worried about my Australia trip, I'm so worried about my baby too. My kind-hearted mom in-law is here in Hk to take care of Wesley, I feel much better with her existence since I can't really trust my nanny. This morning I couldn't even kiss my baby good bye because of my cough and flu :(( This is the first time I get separated from my baby. I'll be away from him for 11 days. He was smiling at me and kicking the air when I said bye-bye to him from far. The smile that will accompany me to Australia for 11 days. Although I'm very happy that finally I can have holiday again with my hubby after the delivery, I feel worried and sad leaving my baby at home. Please be good at home, always be healthy, my baby. Jesus, please continue blessing and protecting my baby, don't let anything bad happen to him. Bye-bye, baby. Mommy will be back soon.

-Abbie-

3.15.2011

My Baby Wesley

Tuesday, 15 Mar 11, 1.07pm at home

Hi my little diary,
I am now at home with my baby and my nanny. My dear hubby is in Korea this week for business trip. My life has been quite settled down now. The first 6 days in hospital when my baby was born are very very meaningful to me. I had a chance to experience what a real mother truly feels.

On 22 Feb 2011 at 11am I had a c-section. I arrived Matilda Hospital at 9.30am. After we finished the administration stuff and some other preparation for the surgery, me and my hubby went into the operation room (read: I forced my hubby to join me in the operation room). My parents were waiting for us outside. The operation room was not scary at all. The doctors and the nurses welcomed us with smiles on their faces, they played cheerful songs, and the room temperature was just nice, not too cold, not too hot.

Around 10-15 minutes after my half body was numb, my baby was out! I heard him crying, and I saw him in my doctor's hands for the first time. This was the best moment I've ever felt in my life. I was crying because I was too happy. I will never forget this moment. The nurse then put him in my arm for few minutes before he was brought to the nursery room. My hubby and my baby were both gone after that, leaving me alone with the doctor who was still busy closing down my lower tummy. I used this time to close my eyes and pray. I really really thank God for giving me an opportunity to be a mom and to experience this best moment in my life. We name our baby Wesley Jenssen Wong.

Five nights and six days I stayed in hospital. I slept with baby Wesley every night. Wesley is very easy to take care. He doesn't cry even when he's hungry or in pain, he only gives signs if he needs something. This is the reason why I didn't let him sleep in the nursery room. Because the nurse didn't even know if Wesley was feeling uncomfortable. I really treasured these first 5 nights I spent with him. It's priceless! I even forgot the pain I had on my lower tummy. My courage to take care of my baby made my pain went away so fast. I started walking and bathing my baby on the next day. Now I know what kind of love moms give to their kids. It's the love that I never felt before.

-Abbie-

2.21.2011

Last Day with My Belly Friend

Monday, 21 Feb 11, 11.35am at home

Dear my diary..
Today is the last day my baby stays in my womb, today is also the last day I have a family of two. I know my life will be totally changed after my baby is born. Will my life be better off after this?

My parents and brother are in Hk at the moment. My dear hubby is also taking paternity leave for almost 2weeks. I have my beloved family members around me now, I feel safe and warm.

Diary, please pray my safe delivery tomorrow at 11am. Hope the baby and me will be safe and sound.

- Mommy-to-be Abbie -

2.10.2011

Last Weeks of My Pregnancy

Thursday, 10 Feb 11, 12.20pm at home
Dear my little diary,
Time passes by so fast. It is now already second month in the year 2011. I am still pregnant now, yes, very pregnant which means my belly reaches its maximum size at this moment. I have started my count-down, it is only 12 days to my baby's delivery day. We have scheduled the c-section on 22 Feb, at that time my baby will be 38 weeks old. My body is already so fat and heavy but my baby's weight is still so light. This is not fair! Why do all the fats just stuck in my body and never go down to my baby??

At this time, I am having dilemmas:
1. About My Privacy
Right now I am enjoying my me-time and quality time with my hubby so much. I know that once the baby is born; my time, my focus, and my money will be all about my baby till the day I leave this earth. Am I exaggerating too much? No. This is the fact, it's just that some people unconsciously/happily do it so they don't feel the burden at all (Group 1). However, some other people feels burdened but they are afraid to say it out loud since it is unethical to do so (Group 2). There are also a group of people who don't want this commitment so they choose to be free like a bird for their whole lives (Group 3). I have firmly chosen to be in Group 1, having baby has been my dream since many centuries ago. It's just that I don't feel I am prepared and ready enough to welcome a motherhood life. *Are you sure you are not in Group 2?* Hush! I will be ready when the time comes.

2. About My Body
Sometimes I get jealous when I see other girl with sexy body, perfect make-up, elegant dress, and high-heel shoes walking so confidently. Look at me now! I am fat with bumps everywhere (not only tummy bump), darker skin, cellulite everywhere, wearing auntie dress, flat shoes, and hardly able to walk straight (plus a beep-beep warning "Stay away, I can collapse anytime!"). What a contrast! In this situation, I wish time can go faster so I can go back to old-me soon. However, when I have quality time with my baby, I feel that I will miss this baby bump some day. How I wish I can make the time going slower so I can enjoy my pregnancy time longer. Sometimes I feel confident walking in the crowd with this out-of-shape body. It's just that I try to avoid having meal in restaurant alone because it makes me look like a fat pig even more.

3. About My Baby
I really enjoy every movement that my baby makes inside my womb. The feeling is so priceless! I like carrying my baby wherever I go, I like talking to my baby whenever I like and waiting for a response from him. It's quite sad to know that the time is almost over. But at the same time, I can't wait to see and hug my own baby!

In these 12 days, I will really use my time to enjoy these last moments of being pregnant because:
1. I will have no excuse to eat a lot after this.
2. I will have no excuse to sleep and be lazy by saying my baby needs me to rest.
3. I will have no excuse that I am dumb and forgetful because of pregnancy brain fog. Once I am dumb, face it, it's a reality.
4. I will have no excuse that I don't look good now because I am carrying a baby boy (my feminine hormone and my baby's masculine hormone crash). So, once I look ugly, yea, that's me, accept it or not.
5. I will have no excuse to nag my hubby to do some house-works and go to fancy places because the baby wants to eat something good.

-Pregnant Abbie-

1.01.2011

01/01/11 at 11.11am

Saturday, 1 Jan 11, 11.11am at home

Dear my little diary,
Today is the first day in the year 2011. Last night I just stayed at home since my hubby was not feeling well and my baby bump is already too big and too heavy to walk around in the crowd. So we decided to cancel the dinner with friends and just had a simple dinner at home.

At 9pm, after my hubby took his medicine, he fell asleep on the sofa and moved to bedroom at 11pm to continue his tight-and-sound sleep. I was also dragged to bedroom to watch movie using my laptop. At 11.58 midnight, I started to hear noise from outside, that was when I realized that the counting down started. I ran to the window and opened my bedroom's curtain but I saw nothing special happened. Exactly at 12.00 midnight, the noise was so loud as if the whole HK people screamed at the same time. And I saw some colorful fireworks came out from some buildings in Central. The ship that was passing by my apartment also released its horn.

It was 12.00 midnight and few seconds, I whispered softly to the only one who was still awake and moving "Happy new year, my baby! This is the year when you will be born". My little one responded me with some little kicks. Yes, he kept moving and kicking to keep me awake before the new year and stayed quiet few minutes after the midnight. He was smart enough to know what's happening, huh? *Or, he just didn't want to spend his first old-and-new-moment sleeping like his Daddy?* Oh, and get well soon, my dear hubby!

Once again, happy new year! ^.^

-Abbie-