Tuesday, 27 Apr 10, 7.33pm at home
Diary,
I just fell sick again, two times falling sick in two consecutive months, and both happened on the third week of the month. I really hope it will not happen again next month. I suffered a lot when I was sick, the whole body ached, my head was spinning, my throat was so painful, my nose was completely blocked. I went to see doctor 2 times last week because of my "kyasu-ness". As a result, both doctors gave me 2 sets of medication. I think I overdosed myself. My illness is gone now, but the post-effect is: my heart beats so fast since yesterday and I easily got shocked over small little things. What I mean by "small little things" is not only small noise.
My mobile phone is now set to vibrate. Even my heart can't take the noise/movement of the vibration. My laptop is also now set to mute all the time, but I am still jumped whenever there is an alert popping up on my screen from MSN/YM that somebody is online or when somebody says 'hello' to me in MSN/YM. My heart can't take the blinking windows at the bottom of my screen too. One of the things that makes my heart beats fastest is when I wash dishes and my slippery hands can't really catch the bowl properly. And the funniest thing that make my heart jumped is when I check my inbox and I see there are new emails in the list and those new emails are in bold. The bold fonts make me shocked! Haizz.. I am tired of riding on roller coaster these two days. I stopped the medication yesterday but I still have this jumpy feeling. How to completely remove this feeling? I am really feeling not alright.
Now you know how my condition is, if you write a comment on this post, that means I will receive new notifications in my email, and that means..... I will be in a condition of placing my left hand on my chest while my right hand is trying to click on the word "Inbox".
My hubby is on the way home now, he will be opening the door in the next 15mins but I don't know the exact time. This is very frightening! I should finish this diary soon and prepare my heart before he suddenly "krrkkk!!" puts the key inside the keyhole and 'grrkkk!!' opens that big dark brown door.
Bye diary...
-Jumpy Abbie-
