Friday, 5 Feb 10, 8.58am at home
Hi again, diary..
Just want to drop some photos about how 'colorful' our Indonesia is. ^^
-Abbie-
'Colorful' Indonesia
Being a Wanted?
Friday, 5 Feb 10, 8.04am at home
Good morning, my dear diary..
It's Friday again! I woke up this morning, brushed my teeth, said bye bye to my husband who's going to work (I mean, he was the one who said bye bye), turned on my laptop, checked my emails, and opened this diary. It's all because I received some emails from my friends who dropped comments in my previous posts. I feel touched that they still care reading my little diary in the middle of their busy schedule. Some of them also kept asking me to write again. I am not sure if they really like reading what I write, or they just need to know what I am doing, or they like reading my posts to kill time before going to bed? Anyway, whatever their reasons are, they are my motivators. And here I am, writing diary again.
I had a dream last night. Quite scary dream. In my dream, I was a wanted. No, I was not sure if I was a wanted. I just knew that I was chased around by some people who wanted to kill me. I kept running. I kept running. The building where I was running around in suddenly was bumped by a big ship and started to go down. *Now thinking about a big ship... how can a big ship bump a building which stands strong in the middle of the city?* That was just a dream! Anyway, I kept running, trying to escape from the building, and from the killers, and suddenly... a hand was on my mouth, there was a guy who wanted me to shut up before I made noise. I was so shocked! This guy whispered on my ear 'Why are you breathing so loud?? Your noise is disturbing my sleep!' Yes, it was my husband's hand and my husband's voice in real life. Then I woke up. End of my dream. I should have explained to him that I was running, that's why I was breathing so loud. I am not some kinds of Piglet or Porky Pig.
Time to go to work now. I mean, time to close this diary and open my other site *facebook??* I really work, ok? Not play-play, ok?
-Abbie-
New Year Brings New Life
Thursday, 4 Feb 10, 12.01pm at home
Hi Diary!
How are you doing? There must be something happening to you too recently? Yes? No? Well, it's because there are many things happening to the people around me, my friends and my relatives. Many of them are getting new bf/gf, getting engaged, getting married, getting pregnant, getting bonus, getting salary increase, getting new jobs, getting new home, etc. Life is so happening! This new year really brings good life to many people around me. I am really happy for them, really, deeply.
But now I started to wonder what I am doing now? *You are writing diary*. Oh yea, thanks for reminding me. I mean, I need a breakthrough! *Yes you had one! You just quit your job!* Yea, right, that's my major accomplishment of my life in 2009! *That's what you wanted!* Yes, I wanted it so much. But I need to dress up and put some make-up sometimes. *What???* You know, working at home doesn't encourage me to dress up at all, not to mention having shower. My everyday uniform is pajamas and white socks. My everyday accessory is my thick glasses. If I have a maid at home, probably I will be more encouraged to dress up. Now I feel ugly, I feel fat, I feel stinky, I feel stupid, I feel like a stupid fat ugly stinky auntie, clear enough with my description?
You know what, I started looking for job again now. Yea yea, you can laugh now. I know I am very plin-plan (indecisive). Don't blame me for being plin-plan, it's because I was born as Aquarius! Aqua is water, my mood swings like how the water flows. Seriously, it's because I'm still looking for my true identity! I really admire people who have clear occupations as doctor, or pilot, or even soldier. They don't need to think who they wanna be anymore. As for me, it's too late to be a doctor now. I can't be a pilot too as pilots can't wear thick glasses. Soldier? I easily collapse when I have to run chasing the bus for even 5mins. Anyway, I feel that I can do my own business as part time job now, that's why I wanna use my spare time to do other useful thing (I mean, beside cooking and cleaning).
Diary, there are so many things that I can't tell you right now. But when the time comes, I will tell you, I promise. Hopefully this new year brings me new life too! *What new life for you? It's been more than 1 year in HK, are you addicted to moving country again??* And it will bring new life to you too, whoever reads my diary! ^.^
-Abbie-
Random Things in January 2010
Friday, 29 Jan 10, 7.50am at home
Dear my little diary,
Today is my first day writing diary in the year 2010. Today is January 29th. I know, it's almost end of January and here I am writing my first post of this year now. I am not sure whether I am not in the mood of writing or I have nothing to talk about or I don't want to reveal my personal life now, I just don't feel like writing anymore, at least, recently. Today, I wanna force myself to write.
As you know, I have been working at home since December 2009. It's officially more than 1 month since I quit my office work. I spend most of my time on managing my online shop. Hey, have I told you about my online shop? Yes, I sell fashion and anything pretty and cute on facebook and on website. If you have spare time, you can have a look at my cute shops; www.facebook.com/ayachan.store and www.aya-chan.net. I started selling on facebook since July last year. Since the number of transactions are getting more and more, I couldn't manage it manually. So, I created this www.aya-chan.net website!
Well, the purpose of this website was actually to automatize the ordering process. I wanted to encourage my buyers on facebook to go to my website to put the items on the shopping cart themselves so I can just process the orders accordingly. However, my products are getting more and more too, I can't update the products on facebook and on website at the same time. So, stupid me is doing double works now! When there is order from facebook, I update the product on the website first, then create a user from my admin system, then buy it online from the website myself using that new user account, then I can process the order. *Wow, so busy!* Yea yea.. but hey, the website is now getting more traffic now since I advertise it on some online forums. Ok then, I admit, the real purpose is to help me managing the post-ordering since I can check and change the order status one by one from the admin page; who has paid, who has not paid, item is delivered, item is not delivered, etc. Otherwise, I will be so confused if suddenly somebody is asking me the status of her order. Yes, I am selling to Indonesia market and this is how it turns out. They like to be served like kings, suddenly they appear and ask me if the goods have been shipped without mentioning any order number. And I can't ask them 'Who are you?' or 'What did you order?' since it doesn't sound so professional. Aya-chan is my first project. Now I am trying to work on another project. I really hope it can take off soon.
About my feeling of working at home? Errr.. honestly, sometimes I need a break to go out and see another God's creatures, I mean, I need friends/colleagues to talk to. My home is my office now, so every time I go back home, I feel like going to office. People are usually tired of working, they really miss home and their beds so much. But for me, if I am tired of working at home, I really wanna get out of my home, even if I just go out to minimarket near my home to buy eggs or tofu for 10mins, I will feel fresher when I am back.
Diary, tomorrow is my husband's birthday. I don't know what I should prepare for him. This will be his 7th birthday with me, we have gone through so many ups and downs. I really wanna do something for him. Do you have any suggestion, diary?
-Abbie-
p.s I don't know what title I should put for this post. The contents are so random. Hmm.. Ok, I got it!
31 Dec 2009
Thursday, 31 Dec 09, 9.26am at home
Hello diary..
Today is the last day of this year. The last day of 2009. I have been praying for something these last few years, and this year I managed to make that dream comes true. A dream to change something. Yes, I managed to change something hateful to be something hopeful. I should be happy about this achievement but I am not. When it used to be so hateful, I was so hopeful. Now it has become so hopeful, too hopeful, and it is so hateful to me. It's not that I demand more than this. It's not that I change my mind. It's just that I force this to happen too much and it does not turn out well now although I got what I want. I forgot that everything happens with a reason. And I never expected that the reason turns out to be something so hateful. It hits me back! I am so sad, I don't want it anymore. Something that I have been praying for years, suddenly I don't want it anymore..
A lesson to learn this year: Never force it to happen with our own strength. I know this. I always know this. But it's not easy to implement it in my life. Seems that my brain and my emotion control my acts.
Tomorrow will be a new year. Tomorrow will be a new day for me. I wanna leave everything so hateful in the past. I wanna be a person who always has hope and faith.
Happy New Year 2010, Diary..
-Abbie-
Last Day In Office
Wednesday, 16 Dec 09, 8.48am on the bus
Hello my little diary..
Today is my last day going to office, this will be my last post on the bus on the way to office too. Today should be a happy day for me, I should be happy today, but why am I sad now? I guess the answer is only one: I already get used to this lifestyle. My colleagues have been my family in HK. This job has been my life since I moved to HK one year ago. I had nobody here, I had no expectation, when I first came to HK. This job gives me life and confidence. I really wanna dedicate this post to thank this company who has been employing me this one year, one month, and six days. But, if I turn back the time, I would still choose to resign. I will have no regret, I need to move on with life.
Yesterday I already had my farewell party with my colleagues. I have passed the job to my team mate. Today will just be a relaxing day for me. I brought all the used-newspapers today, I wanna give these to a grandma who collects used-newspapers every morning near the bus stop. Usually I give newspaper to her once a week since my husband buys newspaper only once a week every weekend. But today, I grabbed all of our "newspaper collections" that I usually keep for emergency purposes. This will be my last chance to help that old grandma.
Yesterday when one of my colleagues asked me "Will you just be a housewife and work at home? Won't you feel bored if you work alone?" *Tink!!* This sensitive question again!
Anyway, my posts have been quite boring to you recently since I'm very serious writing diary now. Let me tell you one lesson if you want to order food from a restaurant in Cantonese. I usually eat fried chicken ball with rice in Taiwanese restaurant near my office.
Me: "Ng goi, sei ye.." (Excuse me, I wanna order)
Waiter: ".........." [running around ignoring me]
Me: "Ng goi, sei ye!! Oei mai!! (Excuse me, I wanna order, take away!!) [I have to shout it loudly]
Waiter: ".....mei ah...?" (....what...?) [this is what I can catch so far]
Me: "Hai, oei mai" (yes, take away) [I thought she asked "oei mai ah?"]
Waiter: "......MEI AH....???!!" (....WHAT..??!!) [she is angry...]
Me: "HAI, OEI MAI!!" (YES, TAKE AWAY!!") [I still thought that she asked "OEI MAI?" and expected me to say it louder]
Waiter: "..........." [she looked at me with writing pose and one of her eyebrows was higher]
Me: "Kai gau fan" (fried chicken ball rice) [when she paused, it's the perfect time to say it]
Waiter: "...yam ah..?" (...drink..?)
Me: "Ng yu" (I don't want) [this part is smooth]
Waiter: "....cao....!!" (....go...!!)
Me: "......." [I shaked my head, I wanted to order, I didn't wanna go!)
Waiter: "....cao... Oei mai??" (...go... Take away..) [aha! This part I know!]
Me: "Hai!!" (yes!!)
Finally we finished the conversation and I managed to order Kai gou fan. Since I always buy Kai gou fan almost every day, when the chicken ball is finished, the auntie will shout "Kai gou fan mo le!!" right in front of my face even before I enter the restaurant. She recognize me now as the chicken ball lady? I will miss Kai gou fan in the future after I stop working... And that auntie..
I am reaching office now, talk to you again, diary!
-Abbie-
Live Life to the Fullest!
Friday, 11 Dec 09, 8.29 am on the bus
Dear diary,
I will officially stop working at my current company on next Wednesday. I really look forward to that day, but at the same time, I feel nervous too. For the last two weeks, honestly I have been afraid to go back to my housewife life. I still can clearly remember how desperate I was when I was in Japan becoming a housewife. I don't like to be a useless person although I must admit that I'm not-too-usefull person too. Well, I guess this time will be different, I mean, slightly different. I know I will still be called housewife - a wife who stays at home, because I don't know what else I can be called. Apartmentwife? Flatwife? Anyway, that will be my new title, but my jobs will not be the same.
You must be wondering, if I don't want to be a housewife, why should I quit my job? Yea, that's what I'm wondering too. Am I crazy? No. Ok, yes.. A bit. What I'm feeling now is "my blood is boiling". *Isn't it winter in HK now? Are you still in HK??* Yes, I am still and will be in HK forever ever after! It has been officially decided, confirmed and endorsed by my husband.
Anyway, talking about my "boiling blood", if I can describe it using simple words, I feel that I can't live my life like this anymore. I am 28 years old now, turning to 29 in 2 months time. And, what have I done so far? What have I achieved? Ok, to make it simple, what is my best achievement in my life? Do you want to know my honest answer? You are right! I managed to find a guy who wants to marry me! That's my honest answer. My career life doesn't make me proud, I know I'm too dumb, I mean, not-that-smart to climb up the corporate ladder, so I should not waste any more time by just sitting dumbly in the office and waiting till my hair turns grey and my time is up! This corporate life doesn't fit me. I need to go out from my comfort zone, I need to take a brave step to at least try doing something else while I'm still young, do you think so? *you are almost 29, you are not young anymore* Haizz... Diary!!
I'm on the way to office now, I wanna enjoy these last 4 working days in my office. I will capture all these last moments and remember it in my mind, perhaps when I'm older *next year??* I wanna go back to this kind of life again. We never know what's going to happen in the future, so just keep praying, grab any opportunities in front of us, and do the best! Live a life to the fullest!
-Abbie-
Diary on iPhone
Wednesday, 24 Nov 09, 9.07am on the bus
Diary!
Finally I managed to find blogspot application on my iPhone! Yea yeah, you are right, after more than 6 months I got my iPhone. I know I'm slow, but better late than never, right??
This is my first post of diary from the iPhone application. It's so easy! It's like sending SMS using a phone! *now you have no more excuse to not write diary!!* Let's see how it looks ^^
Oh, one big thing I wanna tell you today. I resigned last week! I will officially quit my job next month! I'm so excited to do my next business! I will update you again soon.. *now you absolutely have no more excuse not to write diary since you will have more time starting next month!*
-Abbie-
Two Projects
Wednesday, 11 Nov 09, 8.57am on the bus
Morning diary!!
Surprise! I'm writing again now! ^^
Yea, I love writing actually, I love telling stories, I love entertaining people with my stories! But I guess, this diary is getting thicker and older now. Its contents are getting more serious too as my life is no longer simple. My brain only can think about serious issues *finally!* now. Many things happen recently, I just want to summarize them into 1 important point: I am currently in the mid of doing 2 big projects. *what a real summary!* Ok, let me elaborate more;
- One is a project in my personal life
- The other one is a project for my career.
After all, what woman wants in life is only accomplishing these 2 projects, agree?
I have been living in HK for more than 1 year but we are not moving to anywhere again now. This "moving around" issue has been settled now. I guess I will just live in HK for the next 5-10 years. I wanted to say 'forever' since we have no plan to move at all, but we never know what's gonna happen, right? So, I will just put '5-10 years' for now.
Haiz.. Time to rush to office again now since my bus is almost reaching office..
Talk to you again soon, diary!
-Abbie-
*Hey, isn't your explanation too brief for your "Two Projects" title??*
Autumn in Europe
Monday, 9 Nov 09, 8.56am on the bus
Dear diary,
It's Monday again. I don't know how many Mondays passed by without me writing diary. I'm doing fine recently, not as busy as before. I just had an amazing Europe trip for 10 days with my hubby. Do you know why I call it "an amazing trip"? It's because the tour is only for HK people or at least for those who can speak Cantonese. Yes, I have been living in HK for more than a year now and I still can't understand Cantonese. Perhaps some simple words are understood but not the complicated ones. *what do you mean by simple words?* Well, it's something like "good morning", "how are you?", "sorry", "how much?", "what time?", and "on your left/right hand side", "toilet break", "get down from the bus". The last 3 phrases I learned when I was in Europe. It's amazing how I could learn Cantonese faster when I was out of HK, isn't it? Of course! It's because the tour leader kept talking in Cantonese! Not only talking, he kept singing old Cantonese songs using microphone on the bus to entertain the grandmas. You know, most of people who go to Europe are old folks and honeymooners and we are not under either category.
Anyway, my Europe trip was fun after all! I love the scenery! And I especially love the colorful leaves autumn!! You know that I really wanted to see autumn leaves so much since last year, right? Finally I could enjoy autumn in Europe! Although the leaves in Europe were not as pretty as the autumn leaves in Japan, I'm very satisfied now. Europe gives me different feeling about autumn, not so much about the beauty of the autumn itself, but the combination between old buildings and yellow autumn leaves really can make anyone falling in love all over again.
See you again, diary!
-Abbie-
September Now??
Friday, 11 Sep 09, 8.51am on the bus
What date is it today? 11th?? What month? September??!! Oh My God!! I feel like I have been in other world for few months, leaving my dear diary unattended. I am back now. I love my diary so much and I am not leaving you, don't worry. Lately I have been very very busy with my new business and my traveling. I am having hard times to manage time now. I really thank God that finally my own business can kick off, finally!! I have been waiting for this day. It's not about the money that I can earn, but it's a great feeling that you can do it without anyone's help. I always have low confidence in doing things, I always feel I am a stupid clumsy girl, I always don't dare to make further steps. This time, I still do it with low confidence, I did not think it's gonna make it, but God is good! He opens up a way for me!
I wanna start writing diary again now. I don't wanna miss this crucial moment in my life. My life is going to change now. I wanna build a new life for me, and a real family! I am really looking forward to it! ^.^
Diary, I am reaching office soon. See you again! *when???* Soon la, I wanna write about my stories in August. I don't like skipping month! Can I change the date in the diary backward? *you wanna make it as if it was written in August?* Please.. Please.. Only this time, ok? No? Why? Not fun anymore? Hmm.. Let's see..
Got to go now, see you diary! ^.^
- Abbie -
My Holiday In Korea
Wednesday, 5 Aug 09, 9.41am
Hello diary,
I am back in HK again after few days break in Seoul. Just dropping by to upload some pictures when we were in Korea. One of my life missions: go to Nami Island with my husband, has been successfully accomplished! ^^
And you know what? During our day tour, we met another Indonesian couple who were in their honeymoon in Korea. I'm glad to see them! We got along well easily. Here is our picture when we had lunch together. 
This dish is called Dakkalbi, which means chicken BBQ. Looks yummy? Yes, it is! When we finish eating the meats, they put our rice onto that pan, and mix it with the remaining sauce and fry it for a while like making fried rice. Then, we can eat the rice. That is how we supposed to eat but we did not eat like that. How can we eat the salty meat only without the rice? So we asked the waiter to serve the rice together with the meats so we can eat rice and meat at the same time. The Koreans thought we were two weird couples. We didn't care, we have been raised up in rice-and-meat-to-be-eaten-together society, so we prefer to keep this tradition.
-Abbie-
Summary of July
Thursday, 30 July 09, 8.38am on the bus
Hi diary,
It has really been more than one month since I last wrote my diary. Yea, before this month ends, I need to write at least one post. Recently I have been busy with my new business. This is my first time I really can make money from a business, not just receiving monthly salary from a company. The feeling is so different! Now I respect money more than before, earning money is not that easy! At the same time, I feel so excited and rewarded when my hard work is paid off. All the tiredness is suddenly gone. I really can work 20 hours a day with less sleeping now. Now I know the feeling of a hard-working Chinese business man. The feeling is just "it's never enough!" ok ok, I know, I should manage time properly and the most important thing is "do not love money too much!". I got a dream of tsunami one night. In my dream, I didn't save my life right away when the water started to come, I went back home to get my Gucci bag, my Dior wallet, and my iPhone!! In rush, I grabbed a BIBLE instead of my Gucci bag! God reminded me! Yes, He reminds me again and again. I had dream of that tsunami is not only that 1 time but 3 times! 3 times in this month only!
This month is month of July. I celebrated my second wedding anniversary in this month. This should be the month that I thought I would look forward to have so much. I have gone through 2 years of marriage life. It's not about the celebration does matter now. The feeling is different now, no longer have that lovey dovey feeling. My feeling is more into "Needing him" now. I am stepping into a higher phase of life, I guess.
Diary, I will be flying to Seoul tonight to visit my husband. He needs to be stationed to work in Korea for 2 weeks. God is always good, I have been wanting to go to Korea with hubby but every time our plans were cancelled because of different reasons. And this time, we really can go to Korea! With less money too! Isn't that great?
Diary, need to go to work now, see you next month!
I promise I will come back writing diary regularly next month ^^
-Abbie-
Having Short Hair
Friday, 12 June 09, 8.35am on the bus
Good morning my diary,
It has been several days since my last post. It's because I wanted you to really read the meaning behind that chicken love story illustration and understand it well. *Halahh it's just because you're lazy to write!* Well, honestly I have been busy struggling with my new hair! It's so hard to maintain hair above shoulder, especially when I wake up in the morning. I am not sure if my sleeping pose is not so ergonomics or it's the problem with my hair or both? Every string of my hair goes to all different directions they can think of in the morning. During the day, I have to sit with my head straight otherwise my hair will happily lean on my neck and it will be in that shape till I wet it with water. On the bus, I can't put my head on the head rest too as its shape will be as flat as the bus' head rest. Yesterday when I had birthday lunch with my friends, I thought that I had done all my best to keep my hair in good shape, but I was shocked when I saw my own photo which my friend took candidly. My hair looked like duck's lips from side, not even chicken's lips! *Hey, it should be duck's tail, not lips* Whatever. I am so frustrated! I really regret that I cut my hair this short, I thought maintaining short hair was easier. I was wrong. My hair is thin, its shape easily changes. With one blow of wind, my hair will go to the same direction where the wind blows to. With one drop of water from the rain or from neighbor's laundry, my round hair will suddenly be flat and will never come back to its original shape till I hairdry it again. My face looks rounder too with this short hair. Everything just doesn't feel right. I have been writing diary in the past 20mins now, I bet the duck's lips tail is back.
I write it here so I can remember "Do not ever cut my hair above my shoulder again!" Short hair just doesn't look good to me although I like short hairstyle. Never mind, I will wait till it grows longer! *Of course you will wait, where can you go without your hair??*
-Abbie-
Chicken Love Story
Friday, 5 June 09, 11.52pm at home
Hello diary,
Just dropping by to upload these pictures. *Who took these pics?* Me. Why? Is there something wrong? These chickens are so interesting. Look at their love life!
[A guy is chasing a girl] === [The guy and the girl are finally in love]
[They are having kids] === [The girl is now afraid to lose the guy!]
This is an illustration of a relationship between a guy and a girl, before and after marriage.
Anyway, those chickens are actually for salt & pepper. I bought them in Bangkok last week in the airport. I took pictures of them to show you how cute they are, never had intention to create that stupid chicken-love-story.
Good night, diary!
-Abbie-
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